Temptation Week!

It's no surprise to most women to hear from another that when PMS hits, so do food cravings. This week has been hard. I've done pretty well so far. Monday, wasn't the best day, mainly because I skipped dinner and snacked on a WW ice cream sandwich, crackers and cheese. I was craving chocolate and salt. Sound familiar to anyone?

As I've gotten older, this stuff has gotten worse. The cravings and mood swings have gotten stronger, and I keep hoping that as I lose weight, these things will fade somewhat. I hope my wishes aren't disillusioned though.

Last night I resisted beer at the bar, and food, too. I SO badly wanted to order some deep fried pickles. I've never tried these before. Last night it just sounded good. But I resisted. Sometimes it just seems so easy to give up.

Today - I indulged in one piece of Russell Stover Chocolate. Big Whoop. It's 6pm and I still have 11 points left for dinner. Dinner's going to be at a bar for a meeting - but I can safely order a veggie burger or a salad and a diet coke and do just fine.

The point is, temptation is where I always fall short in my struggle to get healthy. I do well for a few weeks, and my hormones get in the way. I'm an emotional eater sometimes. Sometimes I eat because I'm bored. Sometimes I just eat because I happen to like food.

But so far, i'm making good choices, and I need to realize that one bad choice once in awhile is no excuse to give up. I'm doing good. I'm getting stronger. Chris has mentioned twice this week how much more energy I seem to have already.

I just need to keep on going!

Week 3!

It's been a solid three weeks overall. Today when I stepped back on the scale, I was delighted to see a two pound loss. Six pounds total.

YAY ME!

I know the working out is really helping. Today I am so sore, that i'm debating on taking the day off from working out, but I may go and at least do my cardio. I won't get to the gym Tuesday or Wednesday because of after work commitments for my professional organization.

This week is bound to be better than last. I'm SO proud of myself for not giving into stress eating. I focused that stress into gym time and took out my aggressions that way. It's amazing how I feel so different just sitting here. I'm breathing easier, and I feel strong and energetic.

I love surprises. Especially when they come from myself!

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i've been playing around with the templates tonight. i'm still not feeling it though. oh if only i wasn't cursed with design snobbery sometimes.  :)

we hit up two parties tonight. i did pretty well food-wise. i resisted all food at the first party, and just had a beer. when we got to the second party at 10:30, i was pretty hungry, since we had pizza for dinner, and i had two small pieces, trying to eat in moderation. I did okay though. I had a handful of carrots, some pineapple, about 4 tortilla chips with reuben or artichoke dip on them, and one glass of wine.

i had a pretty solid workout today though, and i'm planning to go back tomorrow morning. it feels goooooood to work my way up on those machines. i'm up to 40 mins at level 4 on the elliptical machines, and just increased my upper body weights to 50lbs per machine. Tomorrow i'm going for 50 minutes on the elliptical, lower body weights, and pilates tomorrow night at home.

I'm really beginning to value my workouts as "me" time. It's my time alone with good music and my own thoughts to sort out things, or just daydream a little.

I cheated today and stepped on the scale, fully clothed this morning with slippers on. i was at the same weight as last Monday. I'm pretty sure i'll at least see a one or two pound loss this week, and any loss is good with me!

I also have Monday off for MLK day. I'm really looking forward to the afternoon to spend time at the gym when i suspect it will be at its' slowest.

Krissie's Survey!

The "I LOVE ME" List

1. What do you absolutely love about your body? I think I have a lot of nice features, actually. But I do think I have a very pretty face.

2. When did you surprise yourself with your physical strength? I'm not sure I have gotten there yet, but I am definitely starting to feel the impact of my gym time.

3. When were you braver than you ever thought you could be? When I started looking for a new job recently. My "dream job" is no longer that, and it's very hard to accept. I'm doing what's best for myself, even if it means going beyond my comfort zone.

4. When did your self-control blow you away? i'm pretty proud of my self control this month. I've been very committed to eating right. I've made good choices when i've eaten out with colleagues, and that's what blows me away.

5. What is your proudest moment ever? Probably the day that Chris asked me to marry him. My wedding day was very proud also, but both of us deciding and agreeing on that committment was a pretty huge deal.

6. When was the last time you felt absolutely beautiful? Too long ago. My wedding day. Over three years ago.

7. Why do you deserve to meet your goals? Because I finally have realized that I'm the only one that can make those things happen, and I can't let the rocky days get in the way of that!

Back to the Gym Tonight!

This week i haven't gotten to the gym. Monday night I planned to stay in because I was very sore. Tuesday and Wednesday I was supposed to get there, but instead, I spent both nights on the phone disputing erroneous charges to my check card from the gym I just joined. I cancelled the membership lastnight.

Still nobody has truly apologized to me.

Anyway, i'm honestly looking forward to going back. In just three short weeks, I already feel a difference in my body. I can feel that i'm building muscle in my arms, and I can see it in my legs.

Eating's been pretty good all week. Last night, I saved 4 points for beer at a happy hour I had plans to attend. I had two beers for 6 points though. I can't do light beer. It's just not worth it.

I was STARVING when I got home though. And I had no points for the day. So I had a piece of peanut butter toast. I'll make up for the 4 extra points tonight at the gym for sure. I'm ready to see more results on Monday morning!

We're expecting snow and cold cold weather this weekend. I stocked up at the grocery on Monday night. So i'm going to do some healthy cooking to last us through next week for lunches. I love leftovers for lunch in the winter!

The "New" Gym

So I joined a new gym on Monday night. And today I just may cancel the membership. I'm so angry.

I decided to pay up front for the year. It was much cheaper to do it that way, and i'm only in a one-year contract, rather than a two year contract like I would be if I had gone month to month.

As of today, they have charged my check card FIVE TIMES for this membership. About $2300 in charges, when it should have been $465. I'm so irate. And their manager won't seem to call me back. Something is shady.

I can dispute the charges with my bank, but it will take time.

My home computer is on the fritz, too, and it sounds like we should just buy a new computer, because the repair costs fall just shy of a brand new imac.

I can't catch a break, financially, these days. We've been trying so hard to save and to pay off debt, and stuff like this is really sucking us dry. HELP!

Week Two

At weigh in this morning, I was at the same weight I was at last Wednesday. A loss for the week is a loss though. My four pound total is still great. I'm very excited.

I managed two great workouts over the weekend. Yesterday, I really pushed myself. I'm very sore this morning. It feels great.

I ate out four times between Thursday and Sunday. It wasn't really avoidable either. Okay, last night's was, but it was the only social thing Chris and I did all weekend.

I'm going to keep trudging along. I'm going to check out a new gym near my house tonight. It might be time for a change.