When Bad Days are...well...REALLY Bad.

In an attempt from saving myself from being dooced, I have really been mindful of my mentions of the working environment i spend so much time in. I have not mentioned how stressful, frustrating and overall mind-numbing the last year has been for me.

Nor have I mentioned my strategy around it...much. And I still can't.

My point here is that things have gone from bad to worse. A three-person team, has dwindled to a one-person team - ME. I'm the weakest link. The last man standing. The lone ranger. And I am happier than you can imagine for the other two team mates who have busted out.

It SUCKS though. I can't even express how bad it is for me at work right now. And for those of you who think about food like I do, it might illustrate my mental state when I mention that I don't find the time to eat. I don't care about eating, and I've been spending my free time drinking beer or sleeping.

So if I don't post as often as I should (or would like), understand that I am working to get myself out of the situation I am in. Send some good thoughts my way!

A Fun Friday Night!

All eating talk aside (because it wasn't good), I had a fabulous night out with friends from work on Friday night. We had a happy hour for my friend Christine, who has moved onto our IS department. Afterwards, six of us rented a two-bedroom suite downtown and had a very girly slumber party. It was lots of fun.
Here are a couple of photo highlights:


Chris arrives to join the fun. We had hardly seen each other all week!


My two favorite people from the office!



The unstoppable (former) design team!

It's going to be a GOOD week!

I have decided that this week is going to be a good one. I stepped on the scale this morning and lost a pound! That's the first pound i've lost in a month, and i'm not quite sure how I did it, but I'll take it.

Last week wasn't as good as I'd hoped, and I just didn't want to blog about it and inflict any more of my own depressed self onto this blog. I'm sure what it came down to is that I didn't have TIME for anything. No time for the gym (I didn't go even once), and no time to eat. But when I did eat, I made fairly wise choices (except for yesterday - my easter dinner was a plate of macaroni and cheese and baked beans - and raspberry cheesecake for dessert - whoops!).

I slept in this morning for a work day. And I AM going home on time. My grandfather pointed something out to me this weekend about my job - mainly that if I keep killing myself working, they may never hire the replacement for my boss, because i'm getting the work of two people done all on my own. And he's right. I spoke up for myself last week to my boss and told him I couldn't get a project done in the timeline needed. I really hope he comes through for me on pushing back on the client because they have dragged their feet on the project for almost a year, and now want me to have the project designed and finished within a month - and have only given me part of the info I need.

*sigh*

Such is my life these days.

I am working hard today and this week. I am going to the gym. Chris and I are working hard at combining our money and paying down debt, and we're doing pretty well so far. It's going to be a GOOD week!

You win some, you lose some

I've taken a break from blogging for the last several days because my eating has been awful, my exercising has been limited to walking my dog, and my mood has been less than favorable because of work.

I took some steps last Friday to help myself remedy some of the work issues, and after working Saturday, I feel like i'm back on track to maybe work only about a 45 hour week this week. This is MAJOR.

I set out today to really concentrate on my eating, not really thinking about the chili cookoff that was scheduled at work. I'm embarrassed to say all that I ate today. And it all started with the fact that the lunch did not start until 1pm (I usually am starving by 11:30, and eat then), and I was eating Fritos that were sitting around because I was SO hungry.

Tomorrow's going to be a better day. It has to be. And I promised myself I would get back on track with my eating and with my exercising. And I promise you, my readers (all two of you out there!) that the posts to follow will be positive from an energized and on-track ME!!!!

More of the Same

This morning at weigh in, I stayed the same. AGAIN.

And i'm really really okay with that. I am ashamed of the way I ate this weekend.

Today's a new day though. And i'm working really hard to give myself more work/life balance this week even though i'm busier than ever. I truly think that's the source of my eating desires and pitfalls.

Wish me luck!

9pm, Wednesday

Well tonight was definitely slated on my calendar as a "GYM" night. I just got home from work 45 minutes ago. Ugh...i know! I made a quick (and delicious) dinner - broccoli, tofu and noodle stir-fry. It was fabulous and low fat! But now it's after 9pm. I have a sink full of dishes, several loads of laundry to do, and almost zero energy.
AND I have to be in early tomorrow and have a speaking event to work/host tomorrow night for AIGA (my professional organization).

I am going to try really really hard to do my 20-minute Pilates workout before I go to bed. But I can't make any promises.

HELP! How do I help myself dig out of this hole at work? Why do I work like this instead of asking for more resources or prioritization?